mnvnjnsn's Diary To contact send email to mnvnjnsnATSIGNgmailDOTcom. 2003-08-15
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Shaking I am all freaked out because my mother and That Woman fly in this evening. I'm not even going to see them tonight, but it's still causing me unbearable anxiety. I can't sit at my desk for more than three minutes, which makes both working and writing this entry pretty damn hard. In fact, I need to go walk around for a bit. Whilst I'm gone, enjoy this picture of Phlyd in the big blue chair with Trevor Dunnigan.
My friend V, who is light years better than me as a writer, has started her own diaryland journal. She's balticgrl. Go read her, bookmark her, favorite her. Go! Then come back here. Hopefully I'll think of something to say by then. SO I have a little bit of a plan set up for the "coffee" with my "mother." I'll take her first to my new office, because she loves seeing stuff like that, and I want to share that with just her. Then we'll go somewhere for some sort of drink (I'll try to talk her into a McMenamins or something) and the real pain will begin. I figure I'll start out by talking about my health. That's the pretense of this whole deal. I've got way more problems than she is aware of, and I should probably bring her up to speed. This, in turn, should segue into a talk about not telling Estelle. And then all hell breaks loose. What do I want from this whole process? Well, ideally I'd get my mother and the past 20 years back, but I'm skeptical about that. What I do hope to get is some recognition, some sort of sign that mom is aware that Estelle is a horrible bitch to me, and what I and the rest of the family go through for mom's sake, and that Mom really is on my side. But I'm afraid she may not be. 2:38 p.m. - 2003-08-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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